bad burn

mesmerized by glowing amber.
smoke stung my left eye.
sheesh.
obsessing on keeping the ash off me.
ow!
thinking too much.
too close for comfort.

aposento

i'm drunk.
but i've never been more sober.
i started a revolution.
wake me up when it's over.
i've flipped the switch.
i've tipped the waiter.
broke a heart.
hey, dude, where's the glass of water?

lovesong

you won't understand even if i explain.
you're hearing's good, but your heart has made it faint.
i can talk all night and you could pretend to listen.
but, in the end, it wouldn't have made a difference.

me

can you see
i'm not ordinary
i'm not your casual tuesday
i'm not your friday night

can you see
i'm nothing special
i'm just vanilla ice cream
with the occasional fruit and nut

can you see
i'm not from around here
i have friends on neptune
i'm famous with the martians

can you see
i'm not who you're thinking
i'm weird and unusual
i'm the miracle that God didn't plan.

12

they're the deepest red now.
almost dead; a sanguine final hurrah.
one died a few days ago.

an omen.

i'm bidding them my last goodbye tonight.

sunset

the sun has fallen.
the moon doesn't care.
the stars are mourning.
the rain is cold on my skin.

lunch

hey, world. looks like you won again.
i wanted sunshine, you brewed a storm.
i only had a tuna sandwich; they ran out of roast beef.

the mayo is stuck at the back of my throat.

why can't we agree for once?
please give my tomorrow another chance.

thursday

people-watching.
my favorite hobby.
i'm bored.
the weather hasn't been nice to me today.
no one's wearing my favorite color.
damn.
i'm feeling crappy, pappy.
do something vile for a change.
bittersweet.
the taste of chocolate.
rollercoaster bum.
i need ice cream.
wake me up next year.

satire

i am rebel.
i am coward.
i am fool.
i am fraud.
i am saint.
i am loser.
i don't need no one.
i own this side of the galaxy.

prison

hold me close.
keep me closer.
clip my wings.
tie me down.
chain my hands.
cage my soul.
or lose me to another.

sub secreto, sub silentio

i am a superhero, all bruised and bleeding.
my cape is torn.
my mask askew.
savoring a cocktail of shame, guilt, and crimson tonic.
i just saved the world from me.

four corners

i have never known a life outside my safe little box.
now the cover's off, you lift me out, and i am so lost.
please put me back, cover or none, i'll be content with just looking up once in a while.

alea iacta est

i've been cut by the jagged edge of sobriety.
there's blood on my shirt and on the sheets.
damn. that'll stain.
still want a piece of me?
better get in line then.

blindsided

i can't be trusted.
i don't have the answers to the questions your eyes are asking.

je suis bête.

i'd like to shut up now.
my eyes are saying too much.

i was just being silly

wish it were as simple as that.
if only you weren't such a breath of fresh air.

*sigh*

who am i lying to now?
maybe i was just being silly.
then maybe not.

don't you just hate me?

of solitude and despair

my pain an anesthetic.
i'm hiding behind shallow laughter.

my food needs no salt, it's msg-free.
i'm not eating it, anyway.

what am i so afraid of?
the bogeyman crouches beneath my bed, just biding his time.

sandman can't save me.

amantes sunt amentes

i saw the world.
you were holding it in your hand.
i wanted to take it but i was clutching something else.

i saw your soul.
you were giving it to me in a heart-shaped box.
i turned it down because i thought it was chocolates.

on love

you say you love me but you never told me why.
think it stupid, but i need to hear the words.
think it stupid, but they will keep me in your arms.
is this unfair?

tomorrow

you make me wait in crazy anticipation.
you know how much i hate surprises.
i will not get down on my knees and beg.

fortes

i can't believe it.
i've got nothing more to say.
i have a headache from choking back my tears.
i said we'd work it out.
not tonight.
three cheers for the independent me.

Vae!

captain wildchild

i'm captain wildchild and you're my first mate.
i've run out of smokes just when i needed a marlie moment.

beer sounds really sweet right now.
hand me one with my name on it, please.

what was i thinking?
i'm hearing sugar.