fashion deviant

i've long gotten off the fashion bandwagon and i hit the ground running. i'd rather not say i'm a fashion victim but i do have two cabinets and a chestful of clothes (more in the laundry bin and strewn all over my room), 2 racks of shoes (more in their boxes), 6 drawers of bags, loads of accessories and a headful of off-kilter ideas. my clothes exist for art's sake. harhar. who am i kidding?
dressing up is always a leisurely preoccupation for an ENFP such as me. there's a touch of romance and theatrics about putting on something really out of whack. i've an innate desire to "shock" or just caffeinate people for the day. heehee. i'd be a corporate mannequin one day, day after that i'm looking like a flaky college girl running off to class. today i'm a band member- all grunge but missing a pair of drum sticks or a really cool Fender. theatrics is the keyword here, people.

spare me

spare me the apologies.
i'm not listening.
share your heartaches with someone defenseless against the rantings of a psychotic.
i'm immune to trite and melodramatic utterances.

hundred bucks

original post date: 10.11.2004/3:15pm
sweet. went out last saturday but the hundred bucks never left my pocket. i still have moolah for a tall iced latte at starbs or a couple of beers at aposento. on second thought, i'm swearing off the beer. for now. lousy truth serum.
i'm in a mental rut. there's a lot of stuff to write about but i couldn't make up my mind where to begin. hmm. saturday sounds good.
went to aposento to see liteswitch. their set sounded like my playlist but more mellow- dmb, tonic, and sister hazel queued. my playlist can be as colorful as my vocab with a mishmash of alternative and heavy metal thrown in with reggae, r&b, ambient and whatnot. anyway, i'm digressing.
the night started out with a coca-cola fix at brothers-rockwell. at a quarter to 10, aposento was in the view. nervous as hell, i took my first step (to freedom and everything else). good god! i was swimming in airheads! bwahahaha! this is gonna take some getting used to.
i was mostly quiet the rest of the night but my cheeks ached from laughing. was wary about the arm around my shoulder, but the hand in mine felt good.

disclaimer: i opt not to elaborate. the magic might fade.

addendum: isn't it obvious i was in stupid mode? sheesh.

no title required

a perfectly normal online conference between professionals:

pale_lips (1:16:16 PM): stands up and applauds
rowwrrr (1:16:32 PM): sits in one corner grumbling
pale_lips (1:16:39 PM): considers investing in mutual funds
Yahoo! Messenger (1:16:41 PM): kapopopoy has joined the conference.
Yahoo! Messenger (1:16:45 PM): jepazdesigntech has joined the conference.
rowwrrr (1:17:52 PM): taps her chin and pretends to be pensive
kapopopoy (1:18:06 PM): huh?
pale_lips (1:18:13 PM): listens attentively
rowwrrr (1:18:15 PM): =))
kapopopoy (1:18:54 PM): :))
pale_lips (1:19:02 PM): screams, "They killed kenny!"
pale_lips (1:19:07 PM): knows that the truth is out there
rowwrrr (1:19:19 PM): is holding the murder weapon
pale_lips (1:20:02 PM): palelips stabs jepazdesigntech
kapopopoy (1:20:25 PM): #:-S
pale_lips (1:21:33 PM): Hey room you can create custom emotions by editing the emote_user.dat file
rowwrrr (1:21:42 PM): huwaat?
kapopopoy (1:22:35 PM): hello
pale_lips (1:23:30 PM): invite pa tayo para mas masaya
pale_lips (1:23:33 PM): :))
rowwrrr (1:23:53 PM): takes jepazdesigntech's pulse and says, "i'm sorry, we can't save him"
pale_lips (1:23:59 PM): yells, "For Crying out loud!"
rowwrrr (1:24:11 PM): =))
pale_lips (1:25:00 PM): ponders, jepazdesign is currently having a deep sleep
jepazdesigntech (1:25:47 PM): I-)
Yahoo! Messenger (1:28:04 PM): jepazdesigntech has left the conference.

my apologies. was a little off today. haven't had my regular coke fix since morning and i'm missing my insaniquarium. looking forward to a late dinner with mum.

rose-red sky

it's all about snuggles in bed
snatching kisses in between kitty naps in the crook of your arm
or that tiny little corner where your neck meets your shoulder
warm breaths and sweet nuzzling
i love how you taste oddly of my favorite toasted almonds.

the rose-red sky and the rain dance
aphrodisiac for a lovesick me.

truth serum

original post date: 10.08.2004/11:27pm
truth is at the bottom of the bottle.
when the last drop of amber liquid is poured, truth will abandon its mask of stupor.

addendum: how true, how true.

almost paris

original post date: 10.14.2004/11:25pm
it's been so long since
someone held my hand like this
someone got to me like this
and it's almost paris.

i'm under your spell.
you wave your wand and grant my wish
i close my eyes and await your kiss
and it's almost paris.

this is my romance.
my life starts and ends in your embrace
it's so much more than happiness
it's almost paris.

addendum: was suffering from undue post-breakup transference syndrome when i wrote this. nyaha.

fiasco

the past two months was witness to a smorgasbord of bad choices. i chose to bare my sentiments to another person. bad decision. what was supposed to be my second chance at love turned out to be the most harrowing experience of my life. oh well. c'est la vie. i've tripped and gotten up and dusted off my jeans. that's that.

my day could've been worse

wrote this yesterday while fooling around, endlessly bugging krist for a decent website to visit.

i'm half asleep and i'm counting (bah) in my head.
(O)'s moving as sluggishly as a (sn).
i wish it were (S) and i was at the (ip), looking up at the (*) with a (B) in one hand and a ciggy in the other.
(L) will be (U) while rasta (8) is playing.
but hey, when the (#) comes up, (or when my head accidentally hits the table and i wake up), (C) will rescue me.

after i sent this to him on MSN v6, it was popcap for a little r&r.

addendum: krist sent me to eric conveys an emotion :: adventure edition. muhahaha. it wasn't pretty.

rowwrrr is back!

resurrected.
took a much needed sabbatical from blogging.
all of my previous posts are in draft mode.
rekindled dying (er... dead?) embers.
heehee! sparks are flying!