easily

i have ignored my mental ramblings for as long as possible.
i guess it's time to get off that pill.

so.
just about now i'm at a loss for words.
i'm trying to speak but i can't.

hold that thought. let me take a long drag on my ciggie first.
uh, yeah. ok, that felt good.

i am at a point in my life where i feel everything is still pointless.
my achievements are that of an underachiever.
i am a loser.