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so this is what it's like. nobody told me it would be this hard. even the nightly pep talks from tetch couldn't have prepared me for this. i am so anxious to pick up the phone and dial his number, yet i fear being greeted by the dreaded busy tone. i don't want to end 7 years over the gray phone in the living room. 7 years, 6 months and blah blah days. it's our monthsary on the 14th. beer couldn't save me now. i need to get out of the house but i couldn't. sheesh. i wouldn't get far with only a hundred bucks in my pocket. updates soon.